fustrated~

Aiish...
wad is happening to me?
its getting more n more difficult to control my tears...
they just fall like beads from a broken thread...
uncontrollable, unstoppable...
until the very last drop...
i dun even know the reason behind those tears...
just feel like letting them all out...
to just let them fall without any restrictions,
without anything holding them back...
my heartstrings are taut n at the verge of snapping...
the feeling is devouring me whole...
the sense of fustration when things are beyond control is too much...
its practically tearing my body apart...
i wan to stop, to escape bt can't...
my tears r mingling with my blood,
swirling like a whirlpool in my mind...
im confused n lost...
emotions too purged n finally being let out...
its like the glow from cosmic battles n splashes of colours from the palette,
all mixed together n explodes into an uncontrollable fury...
please...
please stop...
i cannot allow myself to stay like this...
i wan to stay happy-go-lucky, to b happy 24/7...
bt this is my life, raw n real...
n undesirably vulnerable...